03:10 am - Why was this written by someone who wasn't me?

Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Undead.

"We still have time to combine this into one character."

Heh....

12:25 pm - Someone made an Opera of Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead...

I was a little worried it was a joke (I don't know why someone would do that, but you can't be too sure).  After all, someone on the site wrote it was "steeped in American vernacular idioms" which is weird (EDIT: That was about a different opera by the same guy... got overexcited and misread).  

Anyway, I've been listening to it and...

SOMEONE MADE AN OPERA OF ROSENCRANTZ AND GUILDENSTERN ARE DEAD!!!!

AND I DIDN'T WRITE IT!!!!

And its actually pretty funny in parts.  And it has the Unicorn thing (sung by.... Alfred?)   Okay.
 

11:36 pm - I finished the Deathly Hallows

I can't help writing about it.

That's all.

07:59 pm - Watcha gonna do with all that ass?

I know its old news by now, but I can't stop watching Alanis Morrissette's My Hump's video!!

I even made a ringtone from it. I finally found a site that makes it so I can make my own damned ringtones. So much more awesome than paying $2 for a ringtone that isn't even the part of the song that I wanted ($.99 for a credit). You just upload the song and it lets you crop where you want and EVERYTHING. You can even share ringtones

Make your own Alanis - All that ass inside your jeans ringtone

Freaky... I should have gone with the junk in your trunk part because I like the way her voice trills when she says "make you work"

Here's a link to an mp3 of the song I made from the video

I can't even listen to the original now, I tried.

I ummmm.... made a Rosencrantz and Guildenstern blog though its also kind of about Hamlet... by extension. I have a few entries I've been needing to write, but I haven't because I'm horribly addicted to Wikipedia. I even have dreams about editing Wikipedia. So... I'm distracted right now, but I'm trying to wean myself from Wikipedia.

11:33 pm - I've tried to avoid Wikipedia...

But I've begun editing it...  I really don't think that Wikipedia should work, and I don't want to witness its eventual downfall into chaos...   But its so much fun to play with.  I can't stop doing the stupid infobox thing, and meta stuff.  It just is so satisfying... and I feel like I've done something.

02:20 am - Turning back fields into harvested lands

I saw some mangas today, and I wanted to get one.. but they made me sad. Ah well, one can't expect to be able to do everything, I guess.

I finished Gerturde and Claudius and I still don't agree with his Hamlet. I can see it, but... I just don't, in the end. The ending made me sort of sad, because Claudius' view of things was much more pleasant than what "happens".
I also don't agree with his Ophelia. Perhaps I've seen too many productions of Hamlet with a modern Ophelia, who doesn't possess the ethereal and slight qualities so many want to ascribe to her, with her saying with some passion that Hamlet has been very "honorable" with her.
Overall, I liked it all right, even considering my weird prejudice against John Updike. Aside from his Hamlet and Ophelia, I felt like his view fell in perfectly with the play as I have read it.  And he finally stopped hammering home the time and place.
I guess I just have a problem with the 30 year old Hamlet.  I know its in the version of the play we use, but its been explained away and it just makes more sense to have an early twenties Hamlet.

10:50 pm - Okay... I don't hate John Updike... sorta...

His style has softened in time... I can live with it. For now.
I can't hold a grudge against a man who writes a prequel to Hamlet using Shakespeare's source material and the old school Danish names. Though sometimes I feel like I'm having the time and place hammered into me...

( Okay, I get it - its 10(?)th century Denmark, STOP ALEADY!!! )

11:27 pm - I just found something that made me laugh and now I feel better.

Who's got some dick for the Wiz?  

I read some of the other panels, and they're okay-- kind of crude, but... I've read worse.  

Once I read that sentence, I knew I'd have to find a reason to write it somewhere.  So, linking to the comic seems like a good reason. 

10:52 pm - I'd have a nervous breakdown, but Britney Spears is having it for me...

I hate celebrity stuff, but the whole Britney Spears shaving her head thing is on every magazine cover... It probably wouldn't have been such a big deal if she hadn't done it so publically.  Hell, if she had done it at home, maybe it would be the "in thing" or something.  I don't know...

I always figured if I had a serious nervous breakdown, I'd enter a fugue state.  It just sounds about right for me.   That's pretty much what I did when I quit college.  I cut everyone off and moved into an apartment, got a job... my parents didn't see me until I was married and four months pregnant.

I think James worries I'm going to just cut and run at some point, and I think its a legitimate worry.  I'm certainly capable of it.  Especialy when I feel all weird and raw, and everything hurts... not physcially -- not physical pain... But its like the normal callous of life suddenly... disappates and everything just grates and irritates... Oh wow, I didn't mean to write that.  Even that sentence irritates me. 

When I get like that... I can't handle anything.  Its like everything comes at me at once... every person seems to press in on me with their presence... Its difficult to describe -- I've never heard or read anyone describe anything like it.  I suppose you could say that I get to the point where I can't walk and chew gum at the same time, but its more like, I can't chew gum while music is playing because the music mixes in with the rhythym of my gum chewing and it makes my head hurt.  Everything makes me nauseous, and I become Super-bitch to be around because everything has to be MY WAY RIGHT NOW.  I don't try to be like that, it just overcomes me.

I've probably just depressed you... if it works, here's the kitty-cat dance.

06:18 pm - This page now belongs to rock.

You see these words? Lame... I'm going on some sort of weird Tenacious D kick after seeing The Pick of Destiny.
I rock and Jack Black knows it. 

Sure, why not another one?   Yes, I went through every option.  

I'm in the global mosh (number 57283 if you want to find me), and I added myself to the "Do you rock or not" site

I love how the D use the whole masculine rock thing.  

I used to look for Jack Black/ Kyle Gass slash... never found any.  I suspected that 1. They already kind of slash themselves.  If you've seen the HBO shorts on The Complete Masterworks, you see what I mean. 2. (as James put it, at the time) No one wants to think about Kyle Gass having sex. 3. Is that real person slash?  
I suspect there might be some by now, but I'm not looking for it.

Their main site is pretty well designed -- and I've been having fun just letting the music on it just play in the background.  I didn't listen to much of the album when we first got it, but I'm warming up to it.    I really like the opening song in the movie that Meatloaf sings on.   I know they rip off a lot of other music, but thats part of the fun... It doesn't matter if its good, it only matters if it rocks.

07:41 pm

I've been playing with www.faceresearch.org .  Of course, I've been getting messed up results because I'm weird.  In a face sorting test 0% of people had the same facial attractiveness order as me on two categories... the highest was 14%.  And then I just got this:
On average, people preferred the more feminine women 80% of the time and the more feminine men 54% of the time. You preferred feminine women 70% of the time and feminine men 85% of the time.

Heh....

10:32 pm - I hate John Updike.

I suppose that's not right.... I hate John Updike's style. But I hate it because of the superior asshole attitude of his style.  Its probably one of the few times I disliked a book and just hated the author.  Not the characters, not the plot... the author.
But right now I have a book from 2000 sitting on my endtable, staring at me.  Gertrude and Claudius a prequel to Hamlet, drawn from the sources Shakespeare himself drew from, including (most likely) Ur-Hamlet... or whatever its called.  I have to read it. Luckily, I just paid a penny for it.
It seems promising enough, considering that it was written by John Updike.  I kind of have to give him another chance... my dad is all about John Updike.  He used to collect editions of the Rabbit books.  He thinks I don't like him because of cultural differences...
So maybe I'll like this more recent book.  But, it is mostly about Gertrude, and it was his portrayal and characterization of women that really pissed me off last time.  But I have to read it. Maybe he'll write about Rosencrantz and Guildenstern.  And even if he doesn't, it has to be worth reading... right?  Hell, I'd read this by an author I've never heard of, so I should give John Updike a fair chance.
I'll try... This better not be too irritating.

11:06 pm - Wait... wait... what?

Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are coke heads - thanks to the city's unbendable ban on smoking

Ben Waring, director of Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead, said the play had to be 'modernised' because smoking was a key characteristic of one of its lead roles.

I must be misreading this somewhere... I repeat... what?

I get what they're doing... I've thought that myself sometimes... but still... what? (I want to turn back time and fly to Edinburgh to see that)

11:07 pm - My oh my...

Stick Figure Hamlet.  When I first saw it, I thought it might be something along the lines of some of the webcomics on LJ -- using Hamlet as sort of a starting point for characters and such... But its actually a webcomic of the play Hamlet, word for word as far as I can tell.  Its not done, yet, but its not bad.  
I don't like how Claudius and Laertes always look angry, and the fact that he seems to mix up Rosencrantz and Guildenstern's lines rankles me a bit (even if I assume its on purpose).
But the humor and excellent pacing make up for those small irritations.  And the fact that he not only introduces Rosencrantz and Guildenstern in Act II Scene ii with coin tossing, but makes them look like Burt and Ernie makes up for the other thing.
The drawing of the ghost is kind of silly, but I like how he has Horatio looking distinctively "bored" leaning against a wall.  I've never had much love for Horatio, but I like stick figure Horatio more than any live version I've seen.  I might decide I like him, yet.
The artist has a nice touch for the interactions between the characters, including those little touches that bring things to life.  He really paces and blocks it well for each panel to end on a humorous or important moment, and it made me laugh out loud several times.
I'm looking forward to watching him finish it.  He leaves in the "political" aspects with Fortinbras - which most productions cut - and I feel like I understand some aspects of the play that had sort of... slid by me before.  
I might be a product of the times, needing to be fed my Hamlet in bite sized graphic intensive pieces.  But.... its fun!  Though, I'm a literary nerd, so my fun is not everyone's.
Oh, and don't click on my ad.  Its only a penny, but still...

06:26 pm - Happy Valentine's day

Sorry about the post the other day where I believe I used the term "retard". I don't like using words like that and I'm sorry.
For some reason I'm have a hard time with cuts and stuff directly in Lj (before I used a client) so if I'm messing up, sorry. I'll try to get this figured out.
In honor of Valentines day I'm writing something I got from a book I had been reading, "Sex in Elizabethan England". It's pretty good, and not too expensive if you get the edition thats an "unknown binding" in Amazon. As far as I can tell, its unknown because its the edition from the UK. Full of fun information about the times that I'd been wanting but unable to find elsewhere.
So, if I've got the cuts worked out right, there should be a cut here.
( Why do Frances Howards have such low cut dresses? )

11:45 pm - The doctor says: Your shit is fucked up and you talk like a fag

Idiocracy is one of the greatest future movies I've ever seen. I'd compare it to "We the Living" and "Brave New World" but that's just because those are the only future books I've read that I liked. But, even better, its a comedy.
It seems to come from the idea of "How would someone from 500 years ago see us?" and then they reverse it to make it so we can see our own depravity. 

The part that killed me was french fries being one of the food groups. "My children are starving." Carl's Jr. believes no child should starve.  You are an unfit mother.  Your children belong to Carl's Jr. now.
James' cousin Paul is EXACTLY like Frito in the movie,
I was pleasantly surprised that the chick from SNL's role turned out to be so major. I really thought her character was going to be minor and never really flesh out beyond her limited beginnings.
Ways the movie seemed to be "How would someone from 500 years ago see us?"
The degradation of words: Fuddruckers turns into Buttfuckers.
The degradation of the language and dress: What is informal now is formal, and everyone talks like trailer trash. "He could understand them, but when he spoke to them in a normal tone he sounded pompous and faggy."
The degradation of the intellect: the IQ test is unbelievably easy, featuring people putting triangle blocks into the triangle shaped holes (basically a test for kindergardeners right now).  I've seen what people were learning in the sixth grade a hundred years ago, and it made me feel like getting out my triangle block like I was retarded. Stuff used to be a lot more advanced.
The increase in sexuality and normally accepted behavior: I just about screamed when they suggested they go "family style" on the Maya Gastow's (?)character. "H&R Block: The adult tax return".  And "Starbucks" is a handjob place.  

Don't even get me started on a cabinet member being addressed as "funbags".

It did make me feel bad for wasting my time, my intellect, and my life.  Which is always something.

Current Mood: drunk

11:51 am - To post or not to post...

I've been arguing with myself about this. I don't want to come back, because if I do, I won't read my friends list, or comments... and thats just plain rude. I mean, its not right. My counselor says its okay, that you guys probably understand if you've been friended to me all this time... but I don't like it. I don't like being all twitchy and weird and scared still - even though i know you guys are safe and nice.
But I have a good reason... You guys... you are all going to move on and leave lj... and live great lives and work real jobs and have real friends... and I'm still going to be here. And, like it or not, I'm a bitter bitch and it will upset me. It will upset me every time I see the "I'm leaving lj for real life" signs and I'll get pissy and depressed.
And I'll never see you again. There will be no LiveJournal reunion. You lose, you get nothing, good day sir!
And then I'll have to make new friends and I suck at that. I only have the friends I have because of my Rosencrantz and Guildenstern thing and I'm not doing any more lj friends searches. And you guys are used to me... I guess.... Though me posting again after being gone for...six months? or more? might be a welcome or unwelcome surprise.
But... I was outside a few nights ago, looking at the stars... and I realized I had no one to tell about what I saw and what I thought about. Except the people here. LJ seems to attract "my" kind of people...
So, I'm sort of back. I think I'm over the ruined friendship that made me so emo the last year or so... I hope I am. I've done a friendlist cleanup in the hopes that I'll be able to read it, eventually. If I deleted someone I shouldn't have... sorry. I'll do a more through check of it later... maybe.
I don't feel right, being here and not really participating. It seems to miss the point.
But I don't want to start somewhere new, and here at least I FEEL like I'm being read and understood. And that's something.
I lost everything EVERYTHING in a hard drive crash. My nanowrimo. My saved icons. Half finished stories and rewrites.
If you don't like me not interacting with you, I guess go ahead and unfriend me. I'm probably not going to. Though if you want to e-mail or IM me.. that's fine, oddly enough. Can't explain the disparity there. I guess I'm just weird like that.

Current Mood: contemplative

10:23 pm - I'm not really here, you know.

I just had to say...

I must have this poster.

No, seriously. I have to have it.

Even as skeletons they're all in love and slashy. I just had to have a little :squee: where someone else might appreciate it.

But I'm not really here. I didn't really post. This is our little secret.

Oh, and a little extra, since I'm not posting and I'm not here: I happened across this sort of clip thing of someone's production of Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead -- The play version is always slashy - when well done
It gives you a taste of how completely and totally awesome it is onstage for those not lucky enought to have seen it that way. It shows its student status a bit -- but there is so much Ros/Guil love going on. Its so cute... :head explodes:

I assume everyone else has moved on, since it seems that Ros/Guil was just the chic thing for a little while in a little corner of LJ -- but I'm writing a story on adultfanfiction. I'll post officially when its done -- but the WIP is there. It sucks and makes no sense. I've stopped caring -- for the moment.

Current Mood: not here

07:43 pm - I'm moving...

I'm moving, so I'll be offline for a while.  I think it might be for the best if I didn't come back.  It piques my lonliness too much.  Not a promise, or a threat.
Just letting you know.

10:39 pm - You weren't suppoed to help her. Don't you realize? She never sleeps....

I am in a quandry.  The only thing that eases the Lonlieness, is reading.  Which isolates me.  But going online makes me feel lonlier, yet it is a release from isolation.
Reading is a fake form of socialization.  Perhaps thats why social extroverts distrust readers (at least stereotypically) so much.

Every word is for my consumption.  As I read, someone elses mental world is opened for me in its purest form.  I have the authors full attention as long as I am looking that the page.  I see every aspect of the authors personality.  I cradle someone else's soul in my hands.  The author is mine and I am the author's.  The author's word is law, and I cannot argue.  The author creates their world and its rules, I merely watch and try to understand.
It is not exactly interaction, which is why it is isolating.  But its close, which is why it makes me feel better.  Its horribly one way... I can only read the authors words, I can't give back. 

I wonder... should I go back home?  Back into my world of books and theatre and leave the painful outside world to itself.  A part of me wants to go back.  Go back and say "I'm staying here, and I'm not leaving until someone comes to get me."  But I suspect no one will, and I'm not prepared to deal with that.  Its unwise to bluff more than you are prepared to lose.

I'm sorry, I haven't read my comments yet.  They are in my inbox, and I will... tomorrow.  Tonight, I'm reading.

Current Mood: so crazy!